when my dad died 3 years ago, everynite, after everyone was asleep, I left my husband in bed and went to the living room, hoping that my father's ghost will come to see me... But of course he did not come as he didn't know the way as I was living abroad at that time...
I regret that I did not treat him better, talk to him more often, buy him more gifts.... I miss him. I still remember that he called me often the months before his death as he was worrying about me, living overseas while pregnant. Even now, when the phone rings, I always hope that it is my father's call.
I believe that I will meet him again when I die. And when I was in great trouble, his spirit was there to support me.
I realise how important he is only after his death. A bit late.:-(
So i remind myself to love my mom in heart and in action.
I miss my dad so much, too. He died in last month, just now when I flipped over a photo album on the desk, it was the last picture taken in my dad's life when we went out to "yam cha". He was hugging my little girl, even he was sick and he was in low energy level at that time. He still made up a smile,... BaBa, I miss you so much, are you ok now, everything is fine with u? No worry about me, I will eat more and take care myself. I will work less and get more rest. Don;t worry.
Now, when I come across some grandfathers playing with the little kids in the park, it makes me feel so uncomfortable and think of you.
I still remember the first birthday gift in my life was given by you, it was my 5 yr old birthday. you came back from overtime work on Sunday, gave me a very very nice orange color music box and said" dear daughter, today is your brithday and this is a gift to you." Baba, I don't want any gift, I only want you................. :-(
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