I've got the same feeling and situation as yours, I am so nervous right now. Since my 99 refuse to hire a maid, she want to do it all by herself ( I live with my 99 ), I am afraid that she cannot handle it and now I started to think of quiting my job ( at least for the first year until my BB is one year old ) then I look for another job.
Live is so difficult and decision is difficult to make.