北極小企鵝 ,
I am so touching for your reply.
When I was teenage, I went to church for a period of time. However, I left at last. But now, due to my eldest sister & my mother, I am so scared, worry and upset, then i pray to god again.
My mother is a traditional chinese. I think you will be guessed what will she do! She doesn't believe god.
My second elder sister's family and my family must provide 100% support to my mother. We ask my mother forget this group of people. But for me, I am still very very angry. In my mind, I always think how to do something to hurt them. My husband also said I nearly crazy.
I always pray to god, but I can't ask god to forgive them. I feel hard very much.
On the other hand I worry my eldest sister very much, we know 'the worst one" must call her and say something simulate her. How can I do??????
But one thing I must do it, I will keep pray to god!