比everyone learn a lesson ! 當時我個女15個月大, 我仲係全人奶既媽媽, 因為個schedule 真係好tight, 我無論係體力同精神都係完全o/d 左架, 當時係9月份, 我發覺自己生蛇, 睇醫生果陣, 我都好穩陣, 因為全人奶, 所以period 唔準既, 我係果d小心到every time 睇醫生都會驗一驗wee wee, firm 下唔會意外有左先會take medicine 既, 果次, 真係好唔好彩, 我已經驗左架啦, 響睇骨科果陣check 過, 事隔2個weeks 睇生蛇果個都check 過, 都係冇preg 既, but take 左成個月生蛇medicine 之後, 我竟然係有左5 weeks!! 咁當時我sick 緊架ma, at least 有成2-3個月冇曳曳架啦 ……….. 果5 weeks preg 係唔arm 數架, 唔可能係咁少架! At the end, 我睇左5個婦科醫生, 佢地既comment都好一致, 我keep 唔到個bb, 一黎唔arm 數, under size, 二黎我食左成個月medicine ……… 果次我好hurt, 無論身心都咁hurt, 我覺得, 如果唔係我高估左自既既ability, 就唔會保唔住個小生命, I really feel extremely guilty! 我take 左好長時間令自己個心recover, 我覺得, 只有活得更加好, 先係對得住成個family 既最好途徑, 所以, 我嘗試relax 下自己, 唔好迫水自己 ……
我覺得, 唔係要stupid 到真係 “人命悠關” 先學識放開架ma, 大家唔好好似我咁!