我睇完都眼濕濕,很替你難過, plesea don't blame yourself, it's no one's fault, the baby is just not ready.
If you're going to have another birth, it's better to find out the reason by autopsy....please see what will be your husband's perference.
If I were you, I would definitely take a look at the baby. 望都唔望佢一眼,個baby好似太可憐了....but of course if you think you really can't stand it, you shouldn't.....
I know it's a hard time for you and your family. Please be strong and take good care of yourself. You still have your husband and daughter to take care of. I'm sure they would fully support you!
Bearing a baby is always risky as another member said: 一命博一命. Nobody and especially not the mother wants anything bad to happen. Can't lay any blame on yourself.
A friend of mine lost the baby days after he was born. Another has to abort the baby when she was 32 weeks pregnant as they found out very late that the baby had almost zero chance of survival, and if survived, had to be hospitalized for life. Many were also lost in the early stage of pregnancy.
At school and work, we know that we work hard and we can get the results we want. But when it comes to life and death, there is really little we can do. Some times we just have to let go. ...望著一包包尿片.... I think many parents who went thru' miscarrage could really feel it.
My friend who went for the abortion did hold the baby, give him a name, and kiss him. They felt it was like giving the baby what he deserved and an official goodbye. (also advised by the doctor so the parents would be better off psychologically) Probably you can take it for reference.