I still feel so bad that made me lost all my appetite.
I joined that company w/ her on the same day, we left at around the same time. I always made fun on her before for some of her stupid behaviours..... but she never got upset w/ anyone of us. Such a kind-hearted person, esp. towards children. Can imagine how glad she and her hubby had been when learning about carrying "twins", how come the reality could be that cruel.....
One of our colleagues called her family and got the funeral date. I will be there certainly, and with my kid too. My kid didn't remember her that well but I should go w/ him to show our final respect for this great friend
The pain in my heart still persist for quite a long time.... i believe......
then excuse for my silence in horse critic in the forthcoming weeks....
a few times my eyes were filled w/ tears in the office today but I had to try very hard to suppress myself.... such a tough task...... tonite I searched all those old photos that we took together in parties..... who would expect that she would be the first one to leave....... she was such an easy-going person and easy to get along with..... but........it seems too late now to say all these.