Thanks for your sharing. You must be experiencing hard time now. Of course I do not know what u are going through now. But can u tell why do you believe in God 好耐之前? 聖經講到我們受苦, 是有很多因素的, 但可惜大多時都是和神沒有關係的 (除非祂想磨鍊你的生命, 使你的生命更像祂, 更美麗, 讓你經歷祂更深). So it's hard to tell whether"自己屋企發生好多事, 是否神的安排".
Hope to hear from u more and understand the difficulties u are facing now!!