Don't regret, this will not be good to you or to your girl. As wife/modern women, we need to find our own interest to make our life fruitful. Most importantly is that your husband loves you very much, why are you creating problems/issues to yourself? Don't even try to find the perfect way to live, there's none. Human is greedy, we will just keep on asking more and more if you think that way. Frankly speaking, you are already the lucky type among all others because you found a man who loves you more than you love him. Enjoy life and think positive.