I have a old net friend which we know each others more than 10 year. Right now i was married and have a kid...he still single.
We have developed a special relationship like girl/boy friend, we talked everyday. He is not a HK people. In a month ago, he came to HK for a holiday.....at that time, we are the 1st time to meet....the feeling is strange at the very beginning...after that it become good.
During these few days holidays, we stayted together and spend a sweet time. We didnt have SEX, only kissing and hugging. Since he is a christian, he doesnt want to have a sex with me and sometimes, he said he found guilty towareds my hubby.
I dont know why i develop this relationship with him.. Weenjoy it very much, like好似初戀咁. We are so far away, but so close in heart. Might be my hubby cant give me this kind of feeling. Sometimes, even my hubby at home, we are still talking on phone. I know this is not good to the marriage. But I cant control myself to fall in love with my netfriend. I know I love him. Sometimes. when we talked about the content of whether he is going to get marry with other girl (right now he doesnt has girlfriend). I am unhappy and my tears start to running. Might be I really love him. I know this is so-called "婚外情".
Another complicated situation occured. In this summer, I found a married guy in internet just for sharing the marriage life. But knowing that this guy also has sl (secret lover), we chatted for a few months. For me, I cant talk to my friend regarding the 婚外情 with my netfriend. So this married guy seemed the only person that I can talk to, sharing this matter with him. He also give me some advice.
But in this month, he started to invite me to go out for dinner and watched movie. At 1st meeting, we just chatting in a dinner meeting. However, in yesterday movie, he started to hand my hand....then finally kissed me in the cinema.
But when we went out from the cinema, we become a normal friend. Because we both knowing that we are married, afraid to let my friend to see us in the street to know oour relationship.
For me, also strange, I dont know why i allow him to kiss me, I cant sleep last night, my brain has so many questiom marks..????
Actually, I am not so open-minded person. But this time, i lost my way. Who can share his/her own view to me?
This is because you can't find love feeling from your hubby, that's why you let another guy (whether your net friend or that married man) to give you love.
I think your marriage has a red light la, the net friend/married guy is just a signal. The main problem is that your relationship with your hubby is not strong enough.
If you want to keep your marriage, you should strengthen your relationship with your hubby. But I know that is not easy because it needs efforts from both sides.
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