I know a bit of your story. wish you can understand everything can't change and your life must go on. Time is a good medicine to cure your wound for sure. Try to hang out with friends for walk, or do something what to do for make yourself happy. Life is short, why just all the time be sadness?
心存正念,接觸的人都會是貴人;
心術不正,接觸的人都會是小人。