I remember u, u r a ftm and ur bb is always cry at night and u feel very tired, then one day u decide to have a helper again...
becos my case is a little bit the same as yours, so i remember u...
my bb is also 19 months now, my bb is more easy to handle then your bb,and i also have the part time job at home everyday...i also thinking that did i need a helper again ( my ex-helper steal my money...)
I didn't have a helper almost 5 months, this period is very tired....so i know your situation very well...
for your case now....becos we are both the ftm, if the helper make u feel uncomfortable...even just a small thing...i don't think we can accept easily...even they work hard for the housework...
we need a helper becos of the housework( but this is not the main reason), but also when one day we really feel tired ,we feel the pressure when 24 hrs facing the bb,or sometimes we want to have a break or cry, at least the helper can help to take care the bb for a short moment (but actually we do not need the helper to take care the bb for a long day time) , but i don't think this helper can help u, i think she is making the trouble to u now....very soon, u will think that your brain will be broken becos u need to think about one more person that u don't like...my husband always said choose the helper I like but not he like, becos we need to face the helper 24 hrs x 6 days.......
if u want to fired her , u must give her one month salary and tell her go away from your house immediately, don't let her stay with u one month again, otherwise u will get crazy easily (24 hrs x 6 days x 4 weeks)
just like me, I think that did I need a helper again is not only the money,it's becos did I want to stay with a stranger so long time again?...if your bb is already 2 yrs old, she will go to school very soon, a part time EE maybe can help u to do the housework (at least can help u a little bit)....
try to think again if u really want a helper again...
for me, I will fired this helper within these few days,then i will find a parttime EE to do the housework again, without the helper, u already take care your bb for more than one year,....u still alive...why not now need to let the stranger to make u unhappy and angry...