我同我BF拍左六年幾,我同佢都係初戀,佢份人都幾難頂架,唔係話我自己好好,但我成日都會就佢,我朋友都唔明我鐘意佢D乜,但鐘意就係鐘意,解釋唔到,佢冇朋友,成個世界得我一個.....其實拍左咁耐拖,大家都變得好平淡,我同佢又唔係D好SWEET好SWEET既一對,我男友係好無情趣既一個人。我還好,會主動去KISS佢,講我鐘意佢。
咁佢番工個度識左個女同事,一開始我都知呢個女同事既存在,佢地熟熟地,我有時都會潤下佢地,但係因為個女仔都有男朋友,我冇乜點理。
直至前排情人節,佢地傾開送咩俾我,咁我BF問佢同佢男友情人節做D咩,後尾我見到佢同我BF講佢同佢BF散左,自從個女同事散左之後.....佢地傾得密左.........之後我好衰,有次我偷睇佢地WTS app,見到佢同個女同事講話做野個度冇左佢傾好悶,個女同事佢冇gentleman...佢覆個女同事話乜我真係咁差,個女同事話對另外一D同事加分,我BF話佢好有D傷心,佢鐘意個D同事,我見到好mind....因為我bf佢唔會講呢d野....
我有曾經同佢講過話我好唔鐘意呢個女仔,叫佢唔好咁同佢咁熟,佢話我地有幾熟AR,咁我覺得我都講左,就冇再提啦,咁我應我講得唔太清楚既。之後上兩個禮拜,個排搵工同家事,都令我幾唔開心,但佢都冇乜關心我,佢本身份人係唔體貼既,一路以黎我都慣左,但我見佢係咁ON WTS APP,我有留意佢上線時間,又唔係同我傾,我知佢一定係同個女同事講,之後星期三佢同講電話,佢D語氣又冷冷淡淡,到星期四,我放左工找佢唔到,打左幾次佢都冇聽,平時佢放工都會打俾我,或者我打俾佢都會聽,佢七點先打番俾我,話頭先同個女同事講電話,我心諗,點解佢唔聽我電話同我講聲先,但個晚個ON WTS APP好密,十五分鐘ON一次,個晚同佢傾電話,佢全程發夢,睇住個佢WTS APP,佢不停地在線上,之後星期五,我終於有個好消息,我找到新工,咁打左俾佢幾次,佢又係冇聽,到佢打俾我,我問佢係邊,佢講左個大話,後尾我知左佢個日有同個女同事傾電話。佢星期五個晚同我傾電話又係咁,神不守舍,原來佢WTS APP又係在線上。
其實因為呢D事,我個幾晚訓唔著,係咁喊,個心好痛,未試過咁通,訓醒又係咁喊,我覺得佢地兩個有野,個心好想分手,覺得唔應該為左佢而再哂時間,因為我都25啦,再拖多幾年,我真係驚自己變”盛女”
終於我忍唔住,我星期五佢好夜打俾我,我唔聽,到到星期六,我好唔開心,朋友陪我去行山,我電話唔覆佢,WTS APP唔理佢,直至到佢係咁找我,WTS APP我,打俾我,佢問我係咪想分手,叫我聽佢電話,覆佢一個字都好,問我係咪以後既人生都想冇左佢,佢就黎死,我心軟左,覆左佢WTS APP,約左佢星期日出去傾,我已經諗到好絕,我一定要睇到佢同個女仔WTS APP既對話,我先信佢地冇野,我其實預左冇得番轉頭。
咁個日約出黎,我咁岩去開佢個頭,我約左佢係佢屋企留下,佢竟然冇帶電話,我覺得佢特登,我叫佢番上去拎,佢拎完我先肯講,後尾迫到佢上去拎電話,我等左佢一陣,見到佢ONLINE,我知佢DELETE緊某D MSG,佢落到黎,我講哂我成個禮拜發生既事,包括我因為佢個女同事咁而係咁喊,好傷心既事,佢聽完….咁本身我坐低,佢跪左係度,話佢唔可以冇左我,我個下真係心軟了,但我都照問佢拎WTS APP睇,睇完又真係睇唔到佢地係有野,個下我個心都願諒左佢。之後同佢傾,佢一日有我係度,佢都唔會鐘意呢個女同事,咁再同傾,佢同我坦白話佢今年1月尾到2月中個陣,佢對呢個女同事有過好感,因為個排我係咁同佢嘈交,同埋個排有個FD失戀,佢想過澳洲WORKING HOLIDAY,個FD問去唔去,我有問過我BF放唔放我去,佢答我你想去就去,咁我過BF佢會唔會等我,佢話唔知,就係個排佢同女同事傾多左,佢話我知,佢同個女同事講,如果我過澳洲飛左佢(即係我BF),叫個女同事留個QUOTA俾佢自己,個女同事當佢講笑,佢話佢DELETE 左WTS APP呢D內容,另外,我問番佢點解同個女同事講話我偷睇佢內容個D對話,佢話佢都唔記得左自己咁講。
我即刻話佢,你唔係覺得我會飛左你,唔同你一齊AR嗎,其實未發生咁多野之前,我都諗過亦都同佢講過,我唔會丟低佢過澳洲 WORKING HOLIDAY,我驚一年..大家都會變。
同埋佢話佢好變態,好似女仔收BING咁,有人鐘意佢或者注意佢,令佢好飄飄然。我覺得佢以上呢D說話都係真
經過同佢好番既呢幾日,我同佢講得好清楚,叫佢地唔以再好似之前咁傾電話,亦都唔可以再同佢講D奇奇怪怪既說話,我希望佢地連WTS APP都少D傾,佢都有改左小小,佢呢排會主動WTS APP番我,亦都冇好似之前咁冷落我,電話同個女同事都小傾左。但唯一改變唔到係WTS APP,佢成日都會CHECK住,同我行街,佢會趁我唔為意禁下個HOME鍵,係我屋企,佢會趁我去左TOILET又睇,我有為左呢D話佢,佢話只要個女同事冇野,佢冇野咁咪得囉,佢話佢地都係傾D無謂野,我都知,我BF佢唔鐘意同我傾公事,反而同個女同事傾得多D,因為大家同一個工作環境,我會覺得無謂野駛乜傾咁多,佢成日都係同我強調佢地講無謂野,個女仔無野就得,我話咁唔通佢有野你就有野啦WO,佢話唔係,佢叫我唔好諗咁多,但的確,佢因為呢個女同事,佢CHECK多左WTS APP。
我個心都係有猜疑既,因為佢地係日對夜對,雖然唔同樓層做野,但係佢地會幾個人一齊食飯,份工又好STABLE,我唔知要點先可以令我信任佢多D,或者我而家係諗多左,我BF都講過話唔捨得我同佢咁多年感情,佢唔會丟低我一個,但我又唔想佢係因為責任而同我一齊,我都有同佢咁講,佢話唔係責任,但係我都仲係驚佢地會日久生情,點知會唔會有一日,個女同事會鐘意左佢,同我BF講架…..唉,我實在唔知信唔信佢好,定係再觀察佢。我唔知係因為個女同事冇野,佢先會留係我身邊定點AR? 定係所有野都言之尚早…..