好多謝大家既關心, 今日心情好左好多.
而家我地搵緊家庭輔導服務.
我今次真係下了決心唔同奶奶住. 我唔係話自己o岩晒, 不過佢係度, 我真係覺得果度唔再係自己屋企, 同一個自己好憎既人住, 感覺好辛苦. 而我老公因為要我同佢阿媽住, 樣樣都就晒我(除左同佢阿媽有關既問題), 我唔覺得呢個係正常既婚姻關係 - 我同佢關係有幾好, 係 depends on 我對佢爸爸媽媽有幾好. I don't know how to say, I always feel we lack the couple relationship, but like doing trading - he treats me good in return for I please his parents. I didn't realize this problem before and had tried my best to live with his parents. I don't want this type of false marriage. 其實這一刻我好 doubt 我地有無相愛過 - he chose me just because I was the woman that showed willingness to live with his parents. 如果唔係有左bb, 我一定唔會再同佢繼續有婚姻關係, 佢亦係一樣想法 - 唔可以同佢爸爸媽媽住, 佢寧願唔要個老婆.
我時刻都記掛著我那未能來到世上的bb,
他永遠在我心裡某個角落.