I'm very sorry and sad to hear your story...
All the medical staff in Queen Mary is experienced, friendly and kind, please feel ease and take good care, I trust they will help you and you will recover very soon!!
I'm very sorry to hear about your illness. It must be very difficult. Don't waste time to think negatively. Preserve your energy & live fruitfully with your family. Write them letters/short notes and shoot photos/videos. These are very precious for your husband & child when he grows up.
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking alone the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand : one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many time along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most trouble~some times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you'd leave me.
The Lord replied,
"My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."