fully understand your situations,
and I will pray for you.
But when you face with the unhappiness,
do think more about the positive
side of your baby, how cute he is and
everything about him.
for your husband, maybe you have to
give him more time, and maybe you have
to re-start your new life first,
firstly, assume he went aboard for
working, and you are busy with your
friends' gathering, your baby,
so make your own life more fruitful.
at this moment, eventhough you find
out all the truth, or you once again
discuss with him, all will be make you
disappointed. be patient now, it is
the only way you have to do.
hope one day he will miss you and your
baby, and he will return.
since you are a christian, you can
take more time in church's activiity,
hope you will smile again.
Forgive me to be so directly, but your husband is such a selfish man. If he doesn't wish to be with you, he should give a confirmed answer, not asking you to wait.
I understand you are so unhappy now, it makes you not being interested in anything. But you'd better make up you mind, what kind of life you want to be? If you just wait for your husband, you will have wasted a lot of good times that you could enjoy, such as being with your baby.
If you really want to wait for your husband, you should gear up yourself first. Go shopping for pretty clothes, join some activities (anything you want to learn, flower arrangement, knitting...etc), do something that refresh yourself, make yourself comfortable. Think of more activities with your baby. Start your new life without your husband first, always be in good condition to face new challenge.
Be strong! If you still feel depressed, come to BK to talk to us, we are all good listeners. We are always supporting you.