樓主, your husband really needs your support especially when he is sick...seems that you only care about his medication fees....think about if you are the one who is sick, will he leave you? Will he do the same to you just like what you are doing now?
i think i understand you more in here.
my case is similar to yours.
Hubby is very nice to me, but there is also things that i am not happy with. i always ask myself if i should continue to be with him.
people are selfish, that is really true and fact, so no need to feel bad about it. we are not saint and we can't make everyone happy and forget our own happiness. and i believe a part of our purpose on earth is to be happy. what's the point of living if you're not hapy or miserable or meaningless ?
Have you think about counselling and seek professional advice ? Are you prepared to live alone again after being in a relationship for a long period ? if he is not in your life, how would you feel ? and what if he is in love with someone else or he dies ?
If it is his heart problem, he has to change his metal inplant part every 10-15 yr. it is not easy for you to accept it, but he will feel even worse as he is the patient. His emotion is very unstable and he will blame himself for being sick and not being able to take care you and family....