You should treasure of the relationship with your husband. It is really difficult to get together for 20 years, and it's very upsetting to get divorce. You know, 20 years is a very long time~~~!!!!
Think about before you make your own decision. I really hope that your relationship with your husband will improve.
So, please try to think about some good things, think about some sweet memories instead of criticising among two of you.
Yes, it is really hurt to get divorce. I'm not sure whether I can get it through if he also wants a divorce.
I know I have already hurt the feeling of three of us . I have to adjust my attitude towards him and change some of my bad habit e.g. I may accompany him to watch TV by reducing my surfing the Net.