I don't know you personally, but encourage by your post and how you face the difficulties in life. As we are studying the book of Acts, 1 + 2 Corinthians in BSF right now, you may find encouragement in these verses also. "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us and eternal glory that far out weighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:17,18. May God bless you!