Don't worry. You'll be fine. Don't wait for the government appointment of next year. You might try:
1) Find some trustworthy friends or relatives to share your situation with them. You are not alone. A lot of people are caring about you.
2) I know some well-trained, experienced private psychiatrists who charged you a lower and affordable price (compare to other private practician). You could pay a visit and get an assessment first. You could get their advice and make decisions with more information.
3) You might also try some chinese herbalists too. I heard that some people became better by this way. It depends on your physical condition and your faith.
4) Find somethings nice and relaxing to do to side track your attention on this matter.
5) Read some materials that are positive and try to think positive (I know it very hard to do at this stage). Think of what you'll do after recovery and the happiness. Focus on this target and your body will go for it.
6) Try to learn to believe in your body. It's a perfect design and has ability to heal oneself.
7) Be patient. Some people take time in this healing process. Keep going on.
8) Pray to the 'God' of your religion. Ask for the support.
I knew some 私家 only charge you $700-$800 per month!!! (including good quality/less side-effect medicines). It is comparable to or better than government's self-purchased medicine (i.e. 2nd or 3rd generation medicine). It is more affordable. Don't see those 私家 who charge you $1000 per half hour.
But you must know that those 私家 only assess your situation and give you suitable medicine if you like to try the pills. But they do not provide counselling service. Some people can become better without taking pills. However, it's better to get some ideas of why you have those symtoms first. Then you can have a plan for yourself on how to get recovery.
Without taking pills, some people could be better if they can change their ways of thinking, have a different life-style, have a new target for life, have a deeper understanding of themselves, etc....
The illness is an alarm from the deep inside of your body to tell you that you have to have another way of life which fit you better. I am sure you will have better quality of living and happier after recovery. Don't give up. Keep trying to find ways to take care of yourself. There are a lot of people supporting you even though we've never met.