jovababy,
after reading your message, i feel so "gig hei" ar... same as you law...
that's why we always say health is the most precious thing to everybody... especially we are not wealthy people and cannot afford and enjoy the services and care from the private hospitals.... !!!! sigh..............
so, how's your father now? is he doing okay? does he need to go back to the govt hospital for routine checkup?
mememo,
"ka yau ar".....
However, i think perhaps someday somehow you could tell your mother how you think and how regretful you are and I am sure she would understand you gae.... after all, you are her daughter ar ma.... and she also has her children herself, so she should understand your situation ga.... my best personal wish to you and your mother (and also jovababy and her father)....