I hope you don’t mind me writing in English.
Would you like to be brought Up in a family in which your dad committed suicide and your grandparents hold grudge on your mom?
Are u strong enough to raise your child with little support from relatives?
Money is not an issue in your case, so put this aside.
As a Christian, I should not encourage abortion. Yet, as a Mother, I wanna urge u not to give birth unless u can give the baby sufficient love and care, and you r ready to be a single mom.
Most problematic kids come from problematic parenting. Don’t think only from your perspective or your imagination of what your bf would prefer. It’s a whole new life. God bless